And The Candle Burns

I am a father now
To a lost child, why?
I am a father now to
A memory, a prayer
I am a father now in
Title alone, but what role?
Was I a good father?
Did I do it right?
Where is the child
I would have held
in the night? Gone
And the candle burns

How can I feel now
That I have sealed them away
I can't find the screams that
Echo in my head all day
Silent is my pain, hidden
With brick and mortar
I did secure within
Safe within my shelter
Strong and protective
Crying on my walls
And the candle burns

How do I express the pain
That lasts forever to
The one I love who endures
The same?
Fair it isn't, nor right
To hold her close as she
Cries away the night
Mourning the loss of our
child. So small and dear
I hold back, supportive
And nurturing, trembling in fear
And the candle burns

Each night is a struggle
And the candle burns